I think one of the things that I got caught up in was the excitement. I couldn’t wait It had to be done like yesterday. I didn’t stop and take the time to actually think and process what was about to happen to me. I didn’t take the time to actually think about the change that was coming.
I had been big breasted all my life and now they are going to be gone….
That is something that I don’t think I took the time to process. I think that my husband tried to kind of warn me about it. Of course I was all caught up and not listening at all (sorry honey)
The first thing that I noticed is that there is a “loss” factor. The first few days were like woo hoo this is great! Then a few days later the first time I got dressed I noticed the big difference. I almost wondered if I should have tried to be a bit bigger or if I cut to much off. Then I sat down and reminded myself why I chose this size. Why I did this and I was ok and back to being excited.
It’s a whole different life. What I mean is that I had an asset that got a lot of attention. I had a part of me that got used to using that to my advantage at times. I got treated a certain way because I had them. I mean some of it was bad and some of it was good too.
Then you go out after the surgery and its all different. I am not used to people mostly men actually looking me in the eyes ( I about had an anxiety attack). I am not used to women looking me in the eyes and not glaring at their significant other. It’s not a bad thing by any means but it’s different. I just hope my personality is on point or I am in trouble ha ha.
A certain portion of me thinks that perhaps that I’ve been sort of defined by my breasts. My wardrobe was defined by them. My social relationships were a little bit defined by them. So now I need to turn around and sort of redefine myself.
When people say that they go through an adjustment period, It’s true. No matter what scale no matter what it is that they are adjusting, its true. If I could say something to those of you about to go into surgery or are in the early stages. Take some time to mentally prepare yourself.
Take some time away from the excitement and just kind of brace yourself a little bit in your mind. Don’t over do it and kill all your excitement. Just be aware that there is a change coming.
I am still glad that I did it. I am glad to be done with the Hunch back, the messed up tense shoulders, freaking out that I think I have a lump and getting horrible infections under my breasts. I am still forever glad that I did it.
My life is now divided in two parts, before and now. I like now much much better. Just going to take some getting used to.